Sunday, May 3, 2020
Jen Hatmaker and Words
Well, Hello Blog.
It has been awhile.
I am inspired to return here today because of a new book I am reading, "Fierce, Free, and Full of Fire." It is written by Jen Hatmaker, who I admire tremendously. I joke that we are besties...but I'm not sure if we would, if given the chance. I usually seek out a yin to my yang, when it comes to close friends. I imagine that Jen and I would be too "yang and yang."
I'm only on the 3rd chapter of her new book, but the first two chapters have already been A LOT to digest. She is encouraging her readers to self-assess. It is a challenge to self-awareness, with an encouragement to make peace with your divine design. Even the idea of "divine design" is something I am currently wrestling with. How does God's beautiful intention of you reconcile with your inherent "sin nature?" The Bible is confusing on this point. God and I are still talking about this and working it out.
Like most other people, I have really struggled with getting comfortable in my own skin.
Like Jen, a big part of my self awareness journey is entangled with my religious background and its teachings on womanhood. Those beliefs, along with a pretty traditional, Southern, patriarchal family, has led to awkwardly struggling with how to discover and realize my true design.
Whether by nature or nurture, I have always had--again, much like Jen--A LOT of words and A LOT of BIG feelings. It is crazy how even typing that out brings tears to my eyes. Just owning that. Just plainly stating, without judgement--for even just my own eyes to see.
So I think this introductory message of Jen's book of self-discovery and awareness is super important. And as a 41 year old woman, I find that it is incredibly suited and relevant to my stage in life. It feels increasingly critical to my contentment-- that I make peace with who I am, and stake claim to the freedom and grace I have to be her.
I guess I am writing this blog today because I want to be more intentional about processing the truth and wisdom that I am discovering. And writing helps me process. And like I said, I have lots of words, and this is a place to put some of them.
I think I am figuring out that while I like to share my words...but the purpose of the writing is for me.
To be continued....